Funny how days go..

This morning I woke up thinking of my father and what he would think about what is happening in my life.. I miss my dad. I miss him alot...To this day I still cant believe that he is gone. I wait for him to come to my door, or call me on the phone. But I know that will not happen.

My father, well our father, was the kindest man. He had those eyes that made you feel happy and comfortable, no matter what the situation was. I miss going to the store for Macaroons and vanilla ice cream with him. When I buy ice cream now, I tend to only get vanilla because of the memories.. (I dont even eat ice cream any more). I find my self many times lingering in the coffee aisle at the local grocery store, just to savor the coffee smell, that was my father.

I miss being able to go talk to him when I was sad or lonely.. Yes even with all the brothers and sisters I had, I was lonely sometimes. And when that happened we would just go and talk.
I miss sitting on his lap and just putting my head on his shoulder.

Its funny what will bring memories of my father up. When I try to tell Tyler about his grandfather, I get lost in the stories and the memories. I tell Tyler that he has the same art talent and his grandfather has. And even though he never met Tyler he loves him. As he does all his grandchildren that came and will come over the past 17 yrs.
I remember driving through tunnels and listening to him honk the horn... throughout the length of the tunnel! When we were teens, him taking us to seminary and getting a donut and coffee and sitting out in the church parking lot waiting for us to come out.. He was sure glad when Cathy was able to start driving.. but honestly I think he missed taking us~



I can remember sitting on the back side porch watching him read his paper and drink his morning cup of Joe.. and just staring at him.

Dad, I love you.. cant wait to see you again.

So my trip to Salt Lake.. Fruitless!!

Yesterday while at work I wont a radio contest.. the joys of working from home~ So I had to go down to 5 Triad center , downtown to the office of the radio station. So when Ty got home from school we took that trip. Its nice to drive with him, we get alot of talking done. Mostly him talking and me listening, but thats ok. He always knows when to make me laugh!
Well we pulled up to the Triad center, and went into the lobby. Of all things to hear is.. Caren?? Is that you?? Do you remember me?? (honestly I did not!) He is like where do I know you from.. and my quick response was Miss America Pagent runner up?? ( had to think on the fly) Well that wasnt it (as if that is news!) He was a neighbor when we lived in Tooele, and since has moved to Saratoga Springs~ where we just moved from. So I asked him if he was planning to follow us up to Layton too.. but alas he is not~ at least for now!
Well back to my prize.. it was to be a 50 Visa card. Going to give it to Tyler to take on his EFY trip and it was because of him that I got the answer right. It shocked me that he really does learn in school!! He is trying to convince me that lightning does not come from the sky, but strikes up !! I will have to question that. Or google it!. When we got there, mind you driving to get there by 5 pm. They did not have any more gift cards.. did so many people have kids help them to answer the question right?? So now they are going to mail it. Wish that was the option at first! But I do have to say I did enjoy the drive time with Tyler. I am going to miss it when is not going to want to go with me anywhere... I mean ANYWHERE, because I am mom~~

Thought that I would jump on the band wagon!!

It seems that I had fallen behind the times. After all I dont have all the cool gadgets. I dont have a cell phone, and ipod ( I do have a radio.. just won 50 bucks from the station.. can you do that on your IPOD?) or a MAC, but I thought that I can at least have a blog... maybe. I do have to be careful what I do put on this place, after all I do have a teenager, and he will be reading this, and I can hear it all ready .. OH MOM! You did not really say that??

He is getting ready for school, running late as usual, and I told him I started a blog.. and his comment was... wait for it.. UH WHY?? I had to tell him that I did it so that I can put cute little stories about him (thats what he gets for being an only child) and scar him for life... JUST KIDDING, TYLER!! Love you!!

Well I think that I am going to through my journal and see if I can find some stories about him, and how great he is and how he makes our family.. and all the things that happen in the family that can make not only me smile, but maybe give you, that read, a little bit of encouragement. That all is not bad when you have a teen!!